Im back for good now... well 3 months. ;) Hopefully next year I will be able to prep down in Mexico. That weather loves me. Our trip didnt go as smooth this time. Dylan had a horrible bug the first 24 hours. Throwing up violently. The weather was a little off. Everyone we talked to said they had never seen it rain in Dec. Even the woman I sat by on the plane home who had lived there 14 years. We had a couple perfect days though. The day we took the charter boat out was fantastic. The crew was a little crabby and made it clear that they only make 6 us a day before we left dock. We are really good tippers so they shouldve just shut it but everyone has their days. Those people work like no others. Like the one crew member told me... we have to to survive. Here in the states we just say fuck it, the government will bail us out. The service down there is top notch impressive. I love the attitude.. no problem... kicked back. That is for me all the way. They work hard and play hard. I have a lot of respect for Mexican people. I bought a pair of Ed Hardy sunglasses while at Nats a couple weeks ago. I got seriously ripped off on them in Ft. Lauderdale... I didnt know. DUH! I was in a huge hurry to get somewhere and ran into the bathroom sat them on the dispenser.. ran out. I remembered them minutes later and ran back in.. long gone and no one turned them in. In an upscale resort you would think someone would be decent enough but I guess not. It wasnt just that I spent money I really couldnt of shouldnt of on them but I truly looooooooved them and I dont have much in my wardrobe that I really love. REALLY loved them. It really hurt. I had a cry. I dont buy myself much for nice stuff so when I do I am proud of it. What sucks is Dylan was 100% against me buying them in the first place and said.. you'll just lose them. Pretty crushing. We had a few things of unnecessary expense creep up that really sucked. We got back home last night and Ive had severe tummy cramps ever since the flight. I ate some Subway cookies that I know set it off. I am reading the best book ever... Andre Agassi's bio. Really good. I have never related to someone so much in my life word for word. Read that book and you will get some insight into me and my bodybuilding. Like him bodybuilding is all Ive known most of my life. I dont always want to be on but it is what I am and have been. Of course I didnt have a parent forcing it on me. Like him though I feel like I have something to prove and always fall short. Plenty of ridicule that hurts.. even though I still have my fans that love me. Fans are still fickle no matter what. Of course I will never make the kind of money he did off bb. I could justify anything if I was cashing million dollar checks. LOL Anyhow, great book. Im home today just playing catch up. I know Dylan will not be thrilled cause I havent been into the gym. I need to train but Ive had a tummy ache since we left Mexico. Cookies are my nemesis. Always give me tummy aches now days. I am so determined to buckle it down the next 3 months for this show. I want a win sooooo bad! I need it to be honest. Everything except the cold is on my side so I cant complain too much... somehow I always do. I have all the tools to do it but I somehow screw it up. Some psychological shit. Im going to get some help with that this time. It would be so kick ass to turn some things around on the female bb side. I have a couple tendonitis problems to work through the next 4 weeks. The one in my arm will never go away its been there almost 3 years now. At times I dont know how I can take it. Makes doing biceps very difficult. Just get through it!