I am so ready to be back to normal. Dylan hates it when I write in here about my preps cause people often misconstrue what I mean or say. I dont want to sound negative but I guess sometimes the reality of the final days can sound.. a little negative. I always fight the little normal things like being so lethargic, weakened, really quiet... I get to where I dont talk much. EMOTIONAL! My poor husband. lol It all gets a little intense and frustrating so naturally you just want to fight it. Plus, Im a control freak. You know its not you but what a do? Blog/vent! Being a woman I think it is natural. Each prep is so different and I would think by now they would be more predictable but nope. Ive had a lot of nausea with this one which has made some of my eating inconsistent. Not good. Sometimes I just cant eat and then other times I can eat trash.. or could. ;) I have been more stressed than with the last Arnold. Stress is the worst thing ever for losing fat. I think I have some fear associated cause of last years nightmare showing on my part. I dont know if other competitors have ever noticed this but I find certain times of year to just jell with me better too. There is usually some little nagging injury which is there just to make you nuts. I have had insane tendinitis in my right arm bicep for 2 years now which makes back and arm training fun. Then of course you have the good ol genetics. AH! There are certain things that no matter how much you fight you are just screwed. lol I still am in shock at times how seriously HARD it is competing at this level. It is extreme like no one can possibly fathom without actually experiencing it. I cringe with people tell me they "understand". lol Oh Lord! Really? I have so much respect for the woman I compete with. They are unreal! I just admire them so much. Now days if I read something just out of line, rude or just stupid I get pissed where as years back I would let it hurt me. I consider who is making the comment and that says it all. Not too many opinions matter anymore. Only a few that really count. That panel of judges for one. ;) lol I definitely know what it is like to have the fan approval but not so much of the judges. Its nice to have fans love you but its more icing on the cake if the judges like you first. Dylan has been so awesome with this prep. He's even been going on walks with me and Kelee to get me out of the house after working all day. Thats a big one. He has gotten better and better with tuning into me and how woman work. Its taken a lot of trial and error but Im impressed. I am more of the hot head and hes real even which is very helpful. One of the reasons I do compete is cause he loves it so much. I have admitted that Im not always the best at this but there is nothing like seeing him light up cause he loves being involved. The husbands that support the woman that compete at pro level are super special too! At least my training partner can get rid of me after the hour. ;) We've really been through soooo much together with this sport. We were laughing the other day cause I we use to have to buy our chicken in frozen bags and now I go to Whole Foods and buy everything fresh. Funny cause we had to pinch pennies on the silliest things. Now Im fortunate to have more little luxuries... like fresh meats. lol I could tell all sorts of stories about how far we have come.. most too embarrassing. After the Olympia we have to worry about the future location of our gym. We are negotiating our lease but our landlord is not wanting to budge. I do not like our building at all! It has its "cool" attributes for a gym but its a 5 year old building that seems like 20 years old. The location could be better too. I sure something will work out. We definitely need more space too. T's KO fight club just moved in next to us which I think is pretty neat. I would love to learn to fight but Ive never taken the initiative to just do it. I did change my hair drastically yesterday. I wasnt intending on it but my beloved dear friend hair dresser of mine talked me into it. Hes never done me wrong in 8 years so I just went with it. Till later...